i have no patience today, for anything or anyone.
so, that being said, let me rant about a few choice people that angered me as of late. because if i don't bitch about them somewhere, i'll explode. and i know i'm normally more eloquent and grammatically correct on this blog, but a) this is a special kind of entry, b) no one reads this and c) i don't give a damn.
you. we've been best friends since we were in diapers. but as of late, you have changed, and it has not been for the better. you are full of yourself, you are hypocritical, you are fake, and you are everything i don't want in my life. allow me to elaborate: you get one scholarship and you get put in the newspaper for it (because there's nothing better going on in that shitty little town besides who's going to win the next seat on the council and how the crops are doing this year) and you, for some reason, cannot shut the fuck up about it. i understand being excited and all that good shit at the start, but it's been weeks since you got that thing and you're still posting on facebook and snapchat about it like you won a fucking olympic medal. not to mention the fact that i get to go to work with you and hear you blab about it to all our supervisors. "i've paid for a whole year of my college tuition, as a matter of fact" yeah? i have to take out $10k loans every year just to pay for my tuition, books, and rent. so excuse me if i make a face at what to me sounds like a serious case of bragging. i'm not jealous; in fact i was very thrilled for you at the start. but now i'm sick and tired of hearing about all your success, which is actually just the same success over and over again. and to be quite honest, i hope this next year eats you alive. the classes are going to get a hell of a lot harder, and i hope you have more than one shitty, rude professor. i hope i don't hear you bragging about how your business college is so much better than the rest of the university or i'm going to punch your teeth out. i work hard at my degree, just as hard as you do. you are not above me just because your college throws elite parties (which have recently been shut down--thank god) and gives out custom socks to first year students. i hope your degree flops and you're jobless for two years afterwards, just like everyone else. because i think you need a serious wake-up call. you are no better than i am. but you seem to like to think you are. secondly, you are becoming such a big hypocrite i want to gouge my eyes out just reading your facebook statuses. so you delete all the "immature, rude, low-life, sexist, homophobic, racist people" off your friends list because you're just too big of a person to look at all of that, and yet your boyfriend is the biggest pig ever. every story i've heard of him he's been spewing sexist, racist, or homophobic slurs at someone, calling them a "fag" "ni**er" or "bitch" before drunkenly throwing punches. not to mention the fact that you ream out drunk drivers on the daily, placing all the blame on the driver that got him into an accident, and yet you seem to forget that he too was high and drunk and willingly got into that passenger seat. but you coddled him and "fell in love with him" anyway. now tell me, does that sound right to you? i understand he's your boyfriend and yes, you should adore him and all of that good stuff, but he was in the wrong too. he holds some blame. he is NOT the sweet angel you like to pretend he is. and, by the way, what does it say about you that he cheated on you and you're still with him? you're a beautiful, smart girl, and he is a gross, rude excuse of a boy. you can do so much better but clearly you hold yourself to lower standards. thanks for telling me he cheated on you, by the way. i thought that's what best friends are for. guess not. then again, i can't tell you any of this. but this is different. this is the truth and you can't seem to accept any truths that aren't your own. you're just as fucked up and conniving as the rest of them, even with your 95% average. good to know.
next: i will talk about whatever i want to talk about on my own social media accounts. if you don't agree with it or don't like it, you don't have to read it. no one is asking you to do so. just scroll through and find the next best bullshit to read on your home feed. but just because you don't like what i'm talking about, that's not going to make me not talk about it. and don't indirect me when it's blatantly obvious you're talking about me. even if its "not just" me, it's still me. that just makes you look like an even bigger bitch. and listen, at least i'm not ranting like the other people do about it. just because you prefer to send nudes and fantasize about a dick in your cunt-hole despite the fact that you don't even know what that feels like doesn't mean other women don't have better values and better things to think about. i used to think you were really cool, sweet, and funny, and sometimes you still are those things. but i'm sick of your entitled bullshit. you don't run the show. i don't run the show. but you need to get over yourself. no one is going to stop stating their beliefs just because you don't like what they're saying. unfollow or scroll past it. because maybe we don't like the shit you say, but you don't see the majority of us telling you to "shut up about it holy fuck" do you? no. because we have enough respect and dignity to realize that you have differing opinions and values and we leave you to it, even if we don't personally agree with it. so maybe it's time you realized that too and grew up a little bit. you're not a badass that everyone should listen to. you're a horny virgin with a twitter. nobody cares if you don't like it, sweetheart. and i don't care if you don't like me. i don't even know you.
ah, i knew this blog would come in handy. i have a lot more shitty people i could bitch about, but i'll leave it at that for now. feels good to get it off my chest. now i can go back to truly not giving a fuck. bliss.
-b.
so, that being said, let me rant about a few choice people that angered me as of late. because if i don't bitch about them somewhere, i'll explode. and i know i'm normally more eloquent and grammatically correct on this blog, but a) this is a special kind of entry, b) no one reads this and c) i don't give a damn.
you. we've been best friends since we were in diapers. but as of late, you have changed, and it has not been for the better. you are full of yourself, you are hypocritical, you are fake, and you are everything i don't want in my life. allow me to elaborate: you get one scholarship and you get put in the newspaper for it (because there's nothing better going on in that shitty little town besides who's going to win the next seat on the council and how the crops are doing this year) and you, for some reason, cannot shut the fuck up about it. i understand being excited and all that good shit at the start, but it's been weeks since you got that thing and you're still posting on facebook and snapchat about it like you won a fucking olympic medal. not to mention the fact that i get to go to work with you and hear you blab about it to all our supervisors. "i've paid for a whole year of my college tuition, as a matter of fact" yeah? i have to take out $10k loans every year just to pay for my tuition, books, and rent. so excuse me if i make a face at what to me sounds like a serious case of bragging. i'm not jealous; in fact i was very thrilled for you at the start. but now i'm sick and tired of hearing about all your success, which is actually just the same success over and over again. and to be quite honest, i hope this next year eats you alive. the classes are going to get a hell of a lot harder, and i hope you have more than one shitty, rude professor. i hope i don't hear you bragging about how your business college is so much better than the rest of the university or i'm going to punch your teeth out. i work hard at my degree, just as hard as you do. you are not above me just because your college throws elite parties (which have recently been shut down--thank god) and gives out custom socks to first year students. i hope your degree flops and you're jobless for two years afterwards, just like everyone else. because i think you need a serious wake-up call. you are no better than i am. but you seem to like to think you are. secondly, you are becoming such a big hypocrite i want to gouge my eyes out just reading your facebook statuses. so you delete all the "immature, rude, low-life, sexist, homophobic, racist people" off your friends list because you're just too big of a person to look at all of that, and yet your boyfriend is the biggest pig ever. every story i've heard of him he's been spewing sexist, racist, or homophobic slurs at someone, calling them a "fag" "ni**er" or "bitch" before drunkenly throwing punches. not to mention the fact that you ream out drunk drivers on the daily, placing all the blame on the driver that got him into an accident, and yet you seem to forget that he too was high and drunk and willingly got into that passenger seat. but you coddled him and "fell in love with him" anyway. now tell me, does that sound right to you? i understand he's your boyfriend and yes, you should adore him and all of that good stuff, but he was in the wrong too. he holds some blame. he is NOT the sweet angel you like to pretend he is. and, by the way, what does it say about you that he cheated on you and you're still with him? you're a beautiful, smart girl, and he is a gross, rude excuse of a boy. you can do so much better but clearly you hold yourself to lower standards. thanks for telling me he cheated on you, by the way. i thought that's what best friends are for. guess not. then again, i can't tell you any of this. but this is different. this is the truth and you can't seem to accept any truths that aren't your own. you're just as fucked up and conniving as the rest of them, even with your 95% average. good to know.
next: i will talk about whatever i want to talk about on my own social media accounts. if you don't agree with it or don't like it, you don't have to read it. no one is asking you to do so. just scroll through and find the next best bullshit to read on your home feed. but just because you don't like what i'm talking about, that's not going to make me not talk about it. and don't indirect me when it's blatantly obvious you're talking about me. even if its "not just" me, it's still me. that just makes you look like an even bigger bitch. and listen, at least i'm not ranting like the other people do about it. just because you prefer to send nudes and fantasize about a dick in your cunt-hole despite the fact that you don't even know what that feels like doesn't mean other women don't have better values and better things to think about. i used to think you were really cool, sweet, and funny, and sometimes you still are those things. but i'm sick of your entitled bullshit. you don't run the show. i don't run the show. but you need to get over yourself. no one is going to stop stating their beliefs just because you don't like what they're saying. unfollow or scroll past it. because maybe we don't like the shit you say, but you don't see the majority of us telling you to "shut up about it holy fuck" do you? no. because we have enough respect and dignity to realize that you have differing opinions and values and we leave you to it, even if we don't personally agree with it. so maybe it's time you realized that too and grew up a little bit. you're not a badass that everyone should listen to. you're a horny virgin with a twitter. nobody cares if you don't like it, sweetheart. and i don't care if you don't like me. i don't even know you.
ah, i knew this blog would come in handy. i have a lot more shitty people i could bitch about, but i'll leave it at that for now. feels good to get it off my chest. now i can go back to truly not giving a fuck. bliss.
-b.